You wanna be rich..

In the coming few months, one thing that is definitely going to happen is the 360° turn that life's gonna make. Have we all not known about the fact that everything happens for a reason, if I am failing then it's also happening for a reason.  That's a very convenient and easy explanation that we can give to ourselves;for what's coming next is not known to us. I would love to dream very high but that doesn't make my capacity go high.
As you go on aging , you get the crunch out of your life. I am more than happy for my happy and uncompetitive childhood unlike today's generation because those years contributed a lot to my development and added treasures to my memories. Neither i care if I achieved good grades in my school, nor I care about my fellow classmates current status' in the society.
Likewise, I don't care what my position will be in the coming years or where I go for spending my holidays. What I care are the people whom I gonna remember in the coming years and with whom I would love to share my holidays wherever it may be.
Let your behavior decide your future because that's the way it is supposed to be decided. And believe me, if you can proudly call yourself a good person at heart, you are richer than 80% of the people and happier than 95% of the people.

"Maana apni jeb se faqeer hai, fir bhi yaaro dil ke hum ameer hai"

Jeena isi ka naam hai,
Mrunal

No idea what's going on!!

Hi there,

I really want to get out of here, I really do. I cannot think of anything nowadays, I just wanna end this. But end what? my job,  my work, my life, my existence, what??? No idea.. Maybe this is a phase of the working career when you suddenly realise that life is not about working, life is not about getting paid, life is not about shopping, it is about making your minutes count. I want to make my minutes count but i cannot go on like this. I work diligently, I enjoy a social life and then I get a peaceful sleep. But in the night i cannot count on ething that i did in the whole day which i can be proud of. What am I doing? I blank and numb all over, i get fuzzy over little things, i get influenced easily, and i screw all the chances of getting decent life partner.My friend says that i am looking for the answers outside instead of looking for them inside. But how do i do that, looking inside myself? How?

Somebody better answer me, because i m clueless. These days i usually clueless about everything. What's happening? I am insecure, dont know what for. This is not what i had expected out of my life. Is anybody listening to this SOS message? This is really a life threatening situation.

God!!!

Desperately in need of miracle,

Mrunal

Cannot please whole world..

No matter how much I try, I cannot do the things which are acceptable to ALL. Sometimes somebody is going to get hurt and my potrayal will be of an ignorant person.  I have tried to balance out the things amongst all but it hurts me in the end. Sometimes you got to think keeping in perspective of the future. Sometimes you got to prioritize the needs. Sometimes you got to keep your interest at first place.
  I am not saying that I am the best judge but I cannot walk on somebody's road when I cannot see the destination ahead. If I come across a dead end,  it will be a wholly my fault. When i am the person bearing the end result whatever it may be, then I should be the person deciding the way to achieve it. Yes, advices are very important and welcomed but those need to be convincing.
If I have hurt any person knowingly or unknowingly, please understand the complexity of the situations which you are unknown to. The feelings which ought to be mutual and if they are not, then the meetings and conversations become burdens. 
I feel very glad when the other person draws the line of limt and expects me not to cross it. This means that we both are frank enough to respect each other's choices and individuality. But when I do it, very few people can withstand this logic. That's the reason for frequent clashes amongst people, couples, friends and partners.
Above all thoughts and logics are my own, please excuse me if those are not acceptable by ALL.

Feeling exhausted,
Mrunal

Am I scared??? hell, I am..

What scares me?? Answer will take numerous posts but I ll stick to one because I don't want to depress myself.
The voilence around us, the scarcity and depletion of natural resources, the growing diseases, pollution, etc etc...what scares me most is the thought process of us which nowadays is impulsive,impatient and always urging us to prove something. I see a 3 year old kid playing with high-tech gadgets; unaware of the harmful rays and diseases which comes with gadgets uninvited. It isn't the kid's fault, it's of his parents which are either buy in some critically important work or are trying to prove their capability to buy such expensive gadgets-turned-toys. Here comes the desperate need of proving.
Now I see a young boy of merely 10 years of age, asking his dad about cigarettes and alcohol and his dad slaps him hard. Kids are bound to ask questions but we nowadays are so impatient that without giving a thought about reason of kid's question we jumped onto the fact that he is under bad influence. Maybe the reason is the work pressure or inflation or politics whatsoever but is it worth of blaming your kid..
Then I see an old couple waiting years for meeting their grandchildren. What a depressing it must be to wait to meet a child whom they have raised and then wait to meet his children. .Is it not a right if them, which is not jotted down in constitution but morally?????
Some of these questions will always be unanswered but I don't care. I have written these down to remind myself to dodge these problems in any possible way.

In a problematic world,
Mrunal

What makes me cry. .

Hey..
If I want to judge a person or make an opinion about a person, I look for their behavior in vulnerable state. And according to me, a  person is vulnerable when he is hurt or sad and close to tears. I personally hate to cry just because I don't want to portray myself as vulnerable creature.
But I am a girl, nobody can snatch away my universally accepted right of crying. The feeling of being hurt does not make me cry, it's the apology of the person after hurting me that makes me cry. It's not the bad day at office that makes me cry, but concern of my colleague about me does. It's not the headache caused by shrill noise of traffic makes me cry, but smile of small baby in that traffic does. I guess the way my mind works is weird.  Maybe I am so acquainted with the wrong and sad things in this world that a small deed of goodness melts my heart  and makes me cry. So the people whom I ve blamed for making me cry, are actually the best people in my life..

Feeling blessed,
Mrunal

Not my thing...

There are many examples where I find myself unsuitable for this generation. I hate speed, I love writing letters,  I prefer punctuality,  I rarely let my anger go out of control and I hate loud celebrations. May be many of you will nod in agreement but sometimes I go on blabbering about my ideals  in such brazen way, it's scary. I was told yesterday that I have very strong opinions n I stick to them, my elder brother went into shock mode hearing this..I rarely get vocal about my opinions when the other side consists of my elders; whereas my discussions gets very lively with the same age people. Right from childhood,  I was asked to be friends with the people with high intellect but I was never specifically told to be friends with good people. Maybe my folks knew that I ll find good people. This thing always confuses me when ther comes a fork for choosing path to intelligent person n good person. Combination of both in one in quite rare. And I try to be one of those rare minds, even though I know that I am not intelligent but I can be good..:-)
Tell me what you try to be..

Will be back again soon.
Mrunal

Do you know yourself???I do..

Hi Again..

So, answer my question..do you know yourself or it is your mere imagination or assumption that you are your best friend. I know myself and I am pretty clear what I can do and what I cannot. I have met quite a few people who are unaware of lots of things that can be easily achievable for them.

I have seen people who can be such good orator or writer but they really think themselves as a shy person. What I motivate people to do is to write. Writing is the art which communicates as well as keep the track of it. Sometimes, when I talk to people, their thought process impress me and I really feel that something or somebody or some gadget(??) ought to keep track of this conversation. But all goes in vain..

Some people impress me with their sense of humor and nowadays good sense of humor is one of the extinct species. The adult jokes or the cheap dialogs have replaced the sense of humor. When I meet a person with good sense of humor, I duly note the absence of video camera in my mind(and that sucks) ..I like to compliment when they truly deserve it. Most of the times, we neglect the hardwork in the case of failure. 

One colleague of mine has unending patience. We (read as naughty people) ask him every possible thing about our work just to confirm if we are doing our work in right way. And believe me, he answer us alleven if he has answered the same question a couple of minute ago. His patience is something he doesnt know about. And I dnt think I mentioned it either ever..oops..I will do it right away. 

One friend of mine has this ever-smiling face. His team is known by him and his smile. But he is unaware of this fact. Like wise, one friend of mine is at same time a resposible, polite, loyal and a person with full of life. But he has to know this. And, I will let him know right away..

Sometimes while writing blog , I get the realization of doing some things. How come???No idea..

 

Confused,

Mrunal